Forgiveness

Forgiveness is something we all face at some point in our life, several times in fact. Whether it is you forgiving someone or you searching for forgiveness. Now the question I pose is how many of us have truly forgiven ? Many of us, actually I'd venture to say most of us have said or thought we had forgiven someone only to hold what they have done in the back of your mind waiting for that person to screw up again, and when they do you rain down upon them with the anger from past actions as well as the new thing they did to you. Well didn't you forgive them ? wasn't that in the past ?
When it comes to forgiveness you also have to think about forgetting. This came to my mind when a few of my friends and I were speaking about this and what came up was this statement; "I can forgive but I wont forget". Now to me this does not make sense, simply because if you have never forgotten then you always live with that persons past actions looming over your head and can never truly enjoy that person for who they are.
Now I look at it like this if you cannot forget a persons mistakes or actions that may have offended you then that person is not someone you should be around. Look at most siblings who fight it out to the death and litterally minutes later cannot stand to be with out the other, this is true forgiveness . given this no outlook i have chosen to surround myself with people who i trust and care for and i see as family. This way i mistake is a mistake and no matter how upset i may get i know that their intentions where never to purposely harm me, thus giving me the ability to truly forgive.
Now thing to yourself people have you ever truly forgiven someone ? or did you just make the statement and keep them around while sleeping with one eye open. fruit fruit for thought . im done . . . .

Luck

Before I begin, let us remember there are always exceptions to the rule. But in most situations this is the standard, when you are in control of your life and actions and you make stupid decisions, stupid things happen. Many people chalk up sudden fortunate events or unfortunate events to luck, good or bad. And with the exception of winning the lottery and a few other things I have a hard time giving in to that.
Usually when something happens you can follow a long trail of decisions and actions leading up to that event that caused it to happen. For instance, I grew up with many friends as we got older we all chose different paths i busted my ass in high school for the love of a sport that I knew could take me somewhere, it did. In college I busted my ass to be the best and made a name for myself and aquired knowledge and experience in my chosen academic field and in my sport. I then became known for my knowledge in those things after college i met a gentle man who happened to be successful in my chosen field and who as also interested in my athletic skill. I ended up with a job and an opportunity to offer my skill and knowledge to a kid who was seeking it.
Now many looking at the end result would say i got lucky and for a long time i thought the same until i gave it some thought and followed the trail. and it all started with a concious decision to do the right thing and make something of myself, and guess what it set of a chain of events that led up to the so called lucky position that I find myself in now.
Now on the other hand some of the individuals that i grew up with chose different paths. Many of them chose to do the wrong things, drugs, stealing senseless fighting and so on. They made no effort to better themselves, just went along with what was in front of them and thus setting off a chain of unfortunate events (bad luck). And now many of them are dead or in prison, bad luck ? and even if you are someone that makes good decisions does the right thing but still chooses to surround yourself by people who do the opposite you may become victim of other peoples choices. Again there are always exceptions to the rules, but usually things work this way.
What bothers me is how so many people instead of realizing and owning up to their actions always blame luck, which in their mind rids them of all responsibility. Now an athlete trains day in and day out to better their chances of winning they don't just sit around doing nothing and hope they get "lucky" , you are in a hospital awaiting surgery do you want a doctor that has done nothing to prepare to do this type of work and say "i hope i get lucky today and do this right" ? i think not. OWN UP TO YOUR ACTIONS , ACCEPT RESPONSIBILITY !!! I'm done !

I dont even know what to call this one ! ! !

Ok today,s rant is one that kind of makes me upset/ annoyed/ fed up/ concerned, not sure which one to choose. Every one has problems, everyone had struggles, life is full of ups and downs, this is a given. All of these elements of life come in different forms to different people, and a lot of the times these situations have a large affect on others, spouses, siblings, friends and other family. What gets to me is how they are handled. Some people run, some people clam up, some people shut down, some people become hostile. Although for some it may be extremely difficult to over come it is always possible given the right state of mind and attitude.
I often find myself in the face of such situations either happening to me personally or to someone close to me, and in all honesty in the past i have been guilty of handling the situation with every one of the wrong reactions I listed above. I know I may not be as old as some or as seasoned, but i do know that i have spent a large time observing and learning as well as experiencing life's good and bad. It upsets me and affects me greatly when people close to me have to suffer these difficulties, especially when there are others that are more directly affected (kids). Often times i try to be the voice of reason and try to uplift and at the least open the eyes and the mind to help promote the right attitude towards the situation, sometimes i feel it helps, and I'm not expert in solving other peoples problem, all i try is to help them think and make rational decisions.
Ok now the part of this whole thing that really upsets me is when the ones that are affected can do absolutely nothing to help or change the situation. when you are the only one what will suffer from your decisions or behavior or actions or whatever its fine, you make your bed you lay it, but when others have to deal with it thats where the problem comes, i have made a choice to stay away from these situations now because it takes a toll on me mentally and physically because i cannot stand to see people close to me hurt or suffer but sometimes there is nothing you can do. And as hard as it will be for me to just stay out and let it be, i have come to that conclusion.
Make your decisions wisely and do not let life defeat you people, NO MATTER WHAT THE CHALLENGE ! ! ! there is always a solution. Do not forget others who may be affected by the things you do, keep fighting for your life, I'm done.

Rude

Today I'm going to address rude ass people. Can someone explain to me why some people have to be so damn rude ? ? ? I mean if your hate your job its not my fault, if your having a bad day it was'nt because of me , so why take it out on me ? ? ? How about you go be pissy with whoever cause your mood , if anyone at all. And for those who are just always rude and really don't need a reason get over yourself your alive and have enough strength to be rude alot of people dont even have that. So for any of you rude people out there get a better job get a new spouse or just calm your ass down and take a deep breath treat people with some respect and be happy to be alive, rude ass !!!

Mooches ? ? ?

Ok its been a few days, but with no viewers its tough to get motivated to write for the masses (or lake there of in this case). But I figure Ill just use this as a public journal of sorts.
For today's rant I'm going to speak about mooches. We all know them, some are friends, some are family, you may even be one yourself. One of the things that crawls my skin is someone who interjects them self into situations knowing they have no means of funding the said activity. How many of you out there know someone that when events are being planned whether it be a trip or gathering of some sort, one person that is gung ho and them when time comes to pay for it all they have nothing, or to take it a step further, they may even be the one planning things and inviting you! now understand i dont mean just a simple broke friend because thats is not really a problem if you mention you cant afford it or whatever it may be and you are invited anyway and are taken care of but the ones that show up and don't say a word till its time for the bill "hey i don't have any money you got me right ".......i mean wtf is that ? ? ? If you don't have it stay your ass home , and if you even mention it before hand 9 out of 10 times your friends may have your back, but waiting till your already in it, you know damn well what your trying to do. Now people is this just me being selfish or greedy or whatever ? what are your thoughts ? ? ?

Repeat callers

Is it just me , or does anyone else hate being called in rapid succession by the same person. It really annoys the hell out of me. Look if i didnt answer the phone the first time and maybe a second, DONT KEEP CALLING !!!, 4, 5, 6, 7 times are not going to get a different response, unless there is an emergency or someone is dead or on their way there dont do it ! does this annoy anyone else ? ? ?

Ok for my first ever post to this new blog i will address becoming a "crutch". Most of you who know me pretty well know how much of a jerk i can be (lol) but at the same time you all also know what friendship and loyalty means to me as well. That being said, through out my life i have received help from people when i needed it most, and to me that means the world. To be in a position where I can now be the one to be there for people and be the one people come to is a great feeling, i feel blessed. But now comes the dark side of that . Now sometimes this makes me feel like I may be acting a little selfish but where is the line drawn when you are really needed and you just become a "crutch". sometimes i think to myself that people have become so comfortable with me always being there and always helping in any and every way that i can at the drop of a dime that it becomes very easy for them to seek me out. And to top it off get frustrated when I decide I need me time and I,m not around. Now i think have i become a "crutch" is it now out of convenience that I am being seeked out, when do other people realize that I cannot have my life revolve around everyone Else's needs and neglecting my own. Ok I'm going to stop now because as I write I've missed four back to back calls from the same person , now who does that if its not an emergency ??? but that's a whole other rant in itself. I am going to end here or i can go on for days join me people give me your opinion on becoming a "crutch". . . . . .